I have not written on here for quite a while.  Many of you may know that I used to blog on here all the time.  Unfortunately, I am not on here very often anymore, as I have concentrated my social networking efforts on facebook for the last year or so.  However, I must say that I am not crazy about the blogging interface on facebook, so I would rather blog here on Xanga.  I also must admit that I generally don't blog about my personal life.  I figure if I want people to know about my personal life, then I will tell them individually or selectively.  However, sometimes something just compels me to write and this is one of those times...

I have lived a pretty eventful life full of many experiences in my 38 years so far, though I would acknowledge that there is probably a lot more to come.  I don't think I have even truly begun to live my life yet, especially since I have been in a sort of "wandering" phase for about the last 5 years, not knowing where I want to settle down or what I am supposed to be doing in life.  On several occasions I thought I knew what God wanted me to do, only to question it or realize maybe He didn't after all.  I still am not sure exactly what He has willed or planned for my life, but I am in constant prayer over it and believe that He will reveal that to me in His time.

I also wondered if I would ever meet my life mate, or if there was even anyone out there that both God had for me and that I was just head over heels crazy about.  I have made a lot of bad choices in the people I have had relationships with, only to be devastated somehow in the end, probably deservedly so.  I tend to either attract the wrong people or be attracted to the wrong people.  I have been fooled before, thinking that they were genuine and children of God, only to be duped.  Maybe I wanted to be with them so much that I blinded myself to the true them.  Recently, I came to the conclusion that I probably would never find that person that God wanted me to be with and that I really wanted to be with.  I mean, thinking on a permanent basis, I don't just want to settle for anybody, regardless of how old I am.  I only want to do the marriage thing once, so I don't want to screw it up or do it with just anybody.

Do you ever notice that when you think all hope is lost, or you have no chance, that God steps in?  Most of my better relationships always came when I wasn't looking (there's probably a good reason for that), and this time is no different.  Actually, it is different, but in a good way...a better way...a LOT better way!  God has placed someone special in my life that is truly amazing.  And I know she is genuine, real and most importantly, a true follower of Christ.  I can see it in her heart, I can hear it in her words, I can feel it in her witness.  And that, so far, is a good start, because you know what?  Everything else about her has fallen into place and in line.  And no surprise, because I think it all comes back to her relationship with God.  Everything else about her is amazing and she has done nothing short of amaze me (2nd only to God himself by leading me to her/her to me, among other things).

I have high hopes.  I am hoping things progress and get even better than they already are, though I can't imagine it being much better than now because I don't think I have experienced anything as wonderful or anyone as wonderful as her.  I have surpassed anything I have experienced with anyone else before, which is why it feels like it couldn't get any better, because I have never felt anything better before.  But I'm sure better things are to come.  At least I hope so.  I hope God has bigger and better things planned.  We'll see.  Stay tuned...

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1.   Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead.  Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow.  Do not walk beside me either.  Just pretty much leave me alone.

2.  The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and leaky tire.

3.  It's always darkest before dawn.  So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.

4.  Don't be irreplaceable.  If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.

5.  Always remember that you're unique.  Just like everyone else.

6.  Never test the depth of the water with both feet.

7.  If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments.

8.  Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes.  That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.

9.  If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.

10.  Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day.  Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

11.  If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.

12.  If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.

13.  Some days you're the bug; some days you're the windshield.

14.  Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

15.  The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket.

16.  A closed mouth gathers no foot.

17.  There are two theories to arguing with women.  Neither one works.

18.  Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are moving.

19.  Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

20.   Never miss a good chance to shut up.